High School.. University.. Careers :/ gaahh

Okay wow. What a stressful, stressful day. But it's better now. Part of it is atleast. Anyways so some guy came to our school today to talk about chossing medical careers and such seeing as the 'baby boomers' or something are getting old meaning they'll be retiring and there will be lot's of job opportunities anndd the 'baby boomers' .. i hate that word, anyways they will need more medical attention. So my plan was to not go to college or university. But you get so much better pay. :/ . I just don't have the motivation I guess. And even though my grades are decent I'm not really smart. Atleast I don't think I am. And maybe if I was motivated I could get through university but I'm not. So for grade 10 next year I don't know what courses to take. I guess I should decide that before I think about university but the thing is I have no idea what I wanna be, and what I take in highschool could affect what I wanna be when I graduate. I guess I'm still not sure as to whether I even wanna go to university or not. I don't really want to but I'm more confused than ever. I'm only 14. I don't wanna be thinking about this stuff, but should I be? I know I do not wanna be a doctor and I don't think that I wanna be a teacher but at this point who knows. Maybe I'll change my mind and be upset if I just took the easy way out of highschool cuz then I'll have to take highschool courses after I graduate because I need them for the job I want. Ugh. Why do they discuss these things with people my age. I don't wanna think about how much rent and sh*t is right now. I just wanna be a kid. I still sort of am a kid for a little while longer I suppose. It seems I'm either "too young to understand" or "too old to goof off" young to stay out late" but "old enough to do clean my own room". Whatevers convenient I guess. But that's life. Anyways I guess I'll start with choosing highschool courses in February and see where I go from there. I atleast have to graduate high school. I don't know what'll happen after that. I don't know if I want to go to university. I never have but we'll just have to see I suppose. Whateverrrr. I'm just excited to get out of Blumenort. Alright that is all for now. Pce.